Thenali Bayam Dialogue

So, I was watching Kamal Haasan's Thenali on DVD and was amazed at this scene where he describes the fears that he has in a long dialogue, which is supposed to be a single shot. I have always had a weird interest to memorize long dialogues and say it, and my friend, Akshay bet that I coudnt memorize it and speak it with the Srilankan accent, I had to watch the video in slow motion and take down the dialogue, I am posting it here because It's not available anywhere else.


Ellam siva mayam ende solli vinam...Ennaku yellam baya mayam.
Kala unnai kaalal udaikum endru kaalam aana bharathi sonavar,
Colony kaalal udaicha, kaalil adi padum endru bayam ennaku,
Kavidhai bayam ennaku, Kadhai bayam ennaku,
Bheem-endre kadhai kum bayam, Hanuman-dre kadhai kum bayam,
Udhai kum bayam, Sidhai kum bayam,
Kadhavu bayam ennaku! Konjam thurandhe kadhavum bayam,
mulusa moodune kadhavum bayam, Pootu pote kadhavu yendralum bayam enakku,
Paendu thurakka yaelaamal, maatru pata katha vendaal, Thuranthe solluraen,
Mathe bayam ennaku, Kaadu bayam ennaku, Naadu bayam enakku,
Koodu bayam enakku, Kuzham bayam enakku.
Nandu kandaal bayam enakku, Poochandu kandaal-um bayam enakku,
chandu kulaare irrukira vandu kandaalum bayam enakku.
Kadikire naayum poonayum, Poona thinura ezhiyum bayam enakku.

Vedichi setharure cell-um, cellu kagha padhangare pangarum bayam enakku,
Pangar kula irukure paambum boojanum..kadikumo endre bayam enakku,
Sala kootam bayam enakku, thanimai bayam enakku,
thonga bayam, thaava bayam, Indha kaasu bayam, maasu bayam,
thoosu bayam, azhuku bayam, kuzhike bayam, Aadai bayam,
Aadai illai yendaralum bayam..
Ennnglishum bayam ennaku, zenophobia, erophobia, zoophobia, haemophobia,
oritophobia, zefrophobia, tapophobia, psycrophobia, microphobia, glassophobia endre
pala phobiakal aangilatil undu endru solli vinam,  yella phobiavum ennaku undu yenna,
Kadavul thaan unna kaapatha vendum endru sollu, Dr. Panchabootham, saami kita annupunavar,
Anga ponal chebika bayam, sabika bayam, eduka bayam, kuduka bayam, sugika bayam, sagika bayam,
yethayum uyarathil vechu adika bayam, aari kovichu adika bayam, Andai manisarai anigha bayam,
anigha manisarai izhaka bayam, uravu bayam, thuravu bayam, iravu  bayam, vidivum bayam,
Pudiyum paarka yeno bayam, madiyum thoongi yelundhaalum bayam,
soga bayam, vega bayam, roga bayam, noga bayam, poga bayam, vaarathum bayam,
Vaazha bayam, saaghavum bayam.

Mannbhara (my heart feels content)

I was riding on my scooty, It was drizzling and I felt like singing and the word "mannbhara" came to my mind. Was singing like a lunatic while riding (like I always do), But this time the tune and the "lyrics" were my own. So I came home and I thought I'd write a poem, that expresses how a guy feels when he gets back his love after losing her because of problems. So here it goes:

Tham si gayi thi meri zindagi,
Jo ud gayi thi humaari bandagi,
Socha na tha ki faasle itne bad jayengay..
Pata na tha ki itne door hum ho jayengay.

Lagne laga ki zindagi sahi hai tere bina..
Bhool sa gaya that tere pyaar ko, jisme hua tha main fanaa.
Par bahut daer tak yunhi main reh na paaya..
Aur apne aap se jhoot main bol na paaya.

Un lamho ko phir se jeena chahta tha..
Par daer ho chuki thi, Tu bahut door jaa chuki thi..
Sirf un yaadon pe mein jeeta tha, rota tha..
Jahan jaun mushkil hi mushkil bota tha.

Phir aur seh na saka main,
Tere bin reh na saka main..
Koshish karne laga tujhe waapas paane ki,
Tu hi mera rasta, tu hi imtehaan ban gayi.

Aakhir ek din, woh jaadoo phir se meri jindagi mein chah gaya,
Tu aayi waapas, mujhe gale lagaya,
Aur ab
Mannbhara hai mera mannbhara..Manbhara hai mera mannbhara.

Tujhe kabhi galti se bhi na khounga main,
kabhi chodke na jaunga main,
Tu hai toh lagta hai sabkuch hai mere paas,
Tu hai toh..Mannbhara hai mera mannbhara..Manbhara hai mera mannbhara.

Shyam.

If everyone cared

I haven't blogged in a long time. A lot has been happening in my life. I did not get good marks in my 12th exam, I expected more. But maybe we all get what we deserve, 12th was one hell of a year. All our school life, we are told that 12th is the most important year, and scoring marks in the 12th grade is the ultimatum. But our batch was completely chilled out (must be coz we were the first batch of our school), We had crazy times, awesome memories. Sleepovers, hangouts, dinner, lunch, football, FIFA, counter-strike, breakups, linkups, fights, tears, uncontrollable laughter, howling like hoodlums in class, fighting for lunch-boxes, sharing food in the canteen, drinking beer for the first time...It was one crazy rollercoaster ride. After my boards, people started asking me, What next? That was the question that scared me. I have never been sure of what I wanted to do in my life. If people ask me, I tell them that I wanna entertain others, sing, act, have fun, learn music and open a chain of restaurants and go globe trotting, that is what I wanna do! But I am told that before I venture into my "exciting" plan, I need to study, get a degree, and be eligible to work and earn. Everybody around me was going to do engineering and I wasnt sure of what i wanted to do, So I had to take up engineering to be "settled" (Idk what the heck they mean when they say that, WHO THE HELL IS "SETTLED"? everybody keeps working, everyone wants to achieve more!) I was looking thro brochures of different engineering courses and every course seemed boring to me, except biotech, which sorta interested me, even though I had taken Comp. Science in my 11th and 12th. So now, I am a student of B.Tech Biotechnology at the Sri Venkateshwara College Of Engineering. My college starts on the 1st week of September, And I am loving this phase, where there is nothing to study, You can do whatever you wanna :D
I watch movies, hangout, have a lotta fun. But got bored of that lately, So I'm thinking of joining the One Month Part time Acting Course by Radaan and Anupam Kher's Actor Prepares. I also want to learn to play the keyboard, and hit the gym and reduce weight and look fit for college :)

Today was a different experience, I went to get my scooty serviced and met this guy in a mechanic shed, He said he was 19 years old but he looked WAY younger, He had dropped outta school six years ago and has been working since then, I was talking to him and he shared all the hard times he had to go thro while repairing my vehicle, I had this weird sensation in my stomach when he was talking, he said he had been drinking "kanji" (gruel) since over a year, because of financial problems, Now he wanted to open his own shop and He told me that he had repaired a couple of vehicles outside his house, using his own tools without the knowledge of his owner (who abuses his and treats him like a slave), and he had repaired them so well that the owners paid him extra money saying that Nobody does it like him. The sparkle in this guy's eyes inspired me when he told me that he wanted to open his own big shop, I counted my blessings. I gave this guy some money, which he refused to take but I told him that he was like my brother, and he took it. It made me feel happy. We all are so stuck up in little problems, we hardly look around us and into lives of people around us, When we open up our eyes, we will notice that god is much more kind to us and we are becoming more and more thankless and take things for granted. I would like to end this post with a few lines from the Nickelback song.

"If everyone cared and nobody cried, 
 If everyone loved, and nobody lied,
 If everyone shared, and swallowed their pride,
 Then we'd see the day, when nobody died"

Cheers to life :)
Shyam.

Abhi

I got really bored, and I thought I'd write something, this is the first time I am writing something like this in hindi. So here it goes:

"Intezaar kis cheez ka hai tujhe, yaar?
Yeh pal phir naa ayega..
khul ke jee is lamhe ko, 
kar woh sab jo tune karna chaha hai..


Yeh naa soch ki log kya sochengay,
Zindagi teri hai, unki nahin,
Yeh naa milegi dobara.
Banna chaha hai jo tune hamesha se,
Woh ban Abhi,
Kehna chaha hai tune jo hamesha se, 
Woh kehde Abhi.


Apni aankhon mein ek aag leke tu chal,
Reh josh mein, aur hosh mein,
Kar saamna har mushkil ka,
Jitni bhi maar pade, kuch nahi.


Manzil se jyaada hongay raaste kathin,
Par tu naa ghabra, chalte rahe yuhin,
Jeetne ke saath, harnaa bhi tu seekh,
Sab kuch hamesha nahi hota hai theek-theek.

Banna chaha hai jo tune hamesha se,
Woh ban Abhi,
Kehna chaha hai tune jo hamesha se, 
Woh kehde Abhi."

Where's all the love?

I feel hollow, like I am deprived of love. I was so happy all this while, suddenly something changed my mood, my attitude drastically. I'm sure everybody has experienced a situation that completely changes their mood, their thinking. It takes a moment. I am this person, who is usually very happy, sometimes without any rhyme or reason, small things make me happy, I feel there is love all around us. But it's weird that I feel lonely all of a sudden, wish somebody would come and give me a hug right now. I know that life is full of up's and downs and the cycle of happiness and sorrow goes on and on, but I desperately need happiness now, hope I find it soon, in something, in someone.Tomorrow is my last board exam (Computer Science) and I still have loads to study. Hope I do well tomorrow. I need a miracle.

"I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream"
From Abba's I have a dream.

Not so good.

I don't know why I am writing this blog post. I am not happy about anything. Today was my Mathematics board exam, I did not do well. The paper was easy, I wish I had studied a bit harder and practised more. When some of my friends said they'd get a 100 or '90 above', The scene from 3 idiots flashed in my mind. I was not satisfied with my performance.A handfull of my classmates did bad, like REALLY bad, I felt bad for them, because I knew that they had put in a lot of effort. When you put in a lot of effort and then you are not successful, It apparently hurts, I haven't experienced that before, I mean I have experienced failure but the reason has always been the fact that I did not do my best. One of my friends was saying that if he doesnt get good marks, He would do something real extreme, He didnt actually mean it, but I feel that this one exam does not determine whether you will do well in your life or not, frankly, Our life is full of tests, this was just another one (an important one though!). When I do not do well in an exam, the instant worry is always what i would tell MY PARENTS, I start imagining how they would react if I told them different things, but reality ALWAYS outsmarts me. I have my computer science exam day after tomorrow, the board exams are over for the bio people, My bio 'friends' went to the mall and had fun today, It dint irritate me much though, because my performance in math had already distressed me a lot. But now I am cool, Hopefully I will do well in Computer Science. Hoping for the best. I simply cannot wait for it to get over. Comp sci. gets over on the 26th and I have my AIEEE Crash course from the 27th, for which I have to travel to Adyar everyday, hope the classes are fun, I joined because Shyam Shankar told me that the teachers are damn nice. Not only that, there was other stuff that he mentioned. :P At this point in time, I have NO FRICKIN CLUE of what career to choose. I wonder if anybody has been so confused. Hope i figure out soon.
God Bless :)

FAREWELL.

We had our farewell yesterday, It was weird. The 11th graders had done a wonderful job in arranging everything and we had an informal award's ceremony and every twelfth grader got an award. I got the 'Rockstar' award. The guys of our grade had been discussing and debating on what to wear for the farewell and we all decided that we'd wear a suit and sport a formal look. The girls wore sarees. Everybody looked really good. I wore a new suit, and felt awesome wearing it. I felt like a big person. And I finally got to click a picture with Shruti :D. The farewell was like a dream, everybody clicking pictures with everybody else, people getting emotional, hugging each other. I felt really weird. There was this ''sinking'' sorta feeling that I had. I still cannot believe that my school life is over. When I was younger, I used to look up to my seniors in the 12th grade and to me they felt like mature, big people. But surprisingly I dont get that feeling now. I cant believe the fact that the routine that I have been following, is over. The friends that I have made here are as close as family, and I know that it's almost impossible to get friends like these. After the farewell, I went out to have dinner with a few of my friends, at 11:00, came back only at 1:40. Time flies when I am with these people, I am happy, I laugh like crazy. I dont want this to get over. And BTW when I came home THAT late, I got screamed at by my mom and my dad, had my phone taken away. But I dont feel bad about that. Wish I could live my school life again, I feel like I took things for granted. I dont even know what undergraduate course to take up after my boards, The future looks astonishingly uncertain, but I am gonna follow my heart and do what makes me happy.