Boards :/

It's 02:30 AM and I have my CBSE Computer Science Board Practicals in the morning. All my friends, even the ones that are usually carefree about exams, called me up, nervous and scared about the practical. I spent the day trying to complete my Physics record. I really don't like C++, it makes me yawn. I understand that the invention of this language was very important to the current world or computers, but back then those folks didnt have such an awesome world of internet (read facebook, youtube, online gaming) to distract them. Its sad that even those things are based on C++.  Some of my friends find C++ exciting, one of my friends interacts with the computer while writing programs (thats what it looks like), Individuality is a very fascinating thing. Sooo! I was supposed to study today (atleast!) because it's the BOARD practical, but I end up listening to music and reading about stuff on the internet that fascinates me (movies, for now!). I don't know why i am so random, and why I cant plan things, or stick to a plan. I wish I was organised, have tried also, doesnt work out though. I am not even sleepy right now, thanks to the big cuppa coffee :) Imma read through the programs that we're supposed to know by heart and sleep :P. Habit is a bitch. I always fantasize about me transforming into this super studious, sincere, organised person, but I always end up being, me :/ I HATE studying for exams, because when you are trying to study, even the matrimonial supplementary of the newspaper seems much more interesting. I am such an idiot, I am supposed to be scared and nervous right now, but I am chilled. I don't really like this. Will study as much as possible. Imma try telling myself again and again that I loveee C++ :P
Hoping for the best, and trying to be prepared for the worst.
Love,
Shyam
PS: "Namita, you're awesome." you frickin wannabe :P

My Cousin, Maria :D

 My Uncle lives in Russia, my mother's brother. He is married to a Russian, and I have three cousins,  Dattu, 11, Zahar, 6 and Maria, 4. I got to see Maria and Zahar for the first time, when they came to India a couple of days ago. The first time when I saw Maria, she came running to me and hugged me, I was kind of surprised, because we were meeting for the first time. I found her to be REALLY adorable and we clicked, even though She doesnt know English, and I cant speak a word of Russian properly! I realised that love, affection and family bonds break all linguistic barriers. All I knew was that I was really happy, when she was with me and She got really attached to me too! The first day when I got to spend time with her, I was playing with her for a couple of hours, and time flew. When It was time for me to go home, I had a tough time convincing her that I'd be back soon and that I really had to go. I dint want to though. Maybe I am weird, but I really LOVE spending time with kids, and Maria, sort of stole my heart with her sweetness. All kids are cute, All kids are innocent and fun, but you have to agree that at times, you come across some kids, who nag you SO MUCH that you just dont want to stay anywhere near them. But Maria is not a bit like those kids, She is the sweetest and most caring child I have ever met, and I mean it when I say it. I had my Physics Pre-Board exam today, and She came home with her family yesterday, I couldnt help it, but spend all day with her, I felt happy, and there was no trace of stress, problems, anything. I did bad in Physics today, but I actually don't regret it (no matter how shameless I sound). They say “Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.”And the time that I bonded with my cousin sister, was one of the best moments of my life. I really wish she didn't have to go back to Russia, because I already miss her. Its funny how some people bond with you, and affect you so deeply in such a short span of time, maybe we owe it all to the truth and innocence that this kid has when She talks to me, in Russian, expecting me to understand everything that she says, and I may not understand everything that she says, but to feel loved, you don't really have to understand everything. Love is an abstract feeling, like the wind, you cant see it, but you know it's there because you FEEL it.  
Sometimes In life, when you are puzzled about a lot of things, stressed, have hell a lot of problems, one little smile from a baby can give you the happiness, that will make all the problems seem easy to solve. Dont you think so?

The End? Nahhh.

Preboards begin day after, boards in a month. They say, tomorrow is the last working day of school. I still cant believe it, that school is going to get over. School has been a routine since so many years, so many of my friend's are posting sentimental statuses about school getting over and stuff, but I dont feel anything right now, maybe I will feel after it really gets over. School life has been one hell of a ride, we (read classmates) have had fights, misunderstandings, problems but after a while, everything becomes alright, as we all know that at the end of the day we all are like a family, and our bond matters more than anything else. All the memories of school, bring a smile to my face. I think It will take a while for me to realise, THAT ITS ACTUALLY OVER. Only the routine is going to get over, not the friendship. That will never get over, as they say "A friendship that can get over, never really started". The friends that we have made at school, are the true friends, for we're friends only because we like each other, there is no other motive. And our friendship is not something that we calculate and select, It just happens, It's a wonderful feeling. Last year was a crazy year, even after getting a lot of lectures and advices from people, I never actually became serious about studies, and I may sound shameless but I don't regret it, because I feel that if i had been too serious , I would not have been able to live life, the way I do. The way I live life, makes me happy. But now that the boards are hardly a month away, I realise that I need to be extremely focused and sincere, I need to put in a lot of extra hardwork and compensate for all the time when I was having fun. I just want to do well in the board exams, and I hope I will. I want our entire class to do well, like in 10th. We are the first batch of 12th graders from our school, and I hope we set the standards for our juniors. Before I sign off, I want to tell people who recently read my blog and were making fun of me, I really dont like you :P
Take care.
Love
Shyam
"Just because a goal post has a goal keeper, It doesn't mean that you cant score"

Packed Sunday.

Today started off well, I got up early and left for Centum Srinivasan's AIEEE Maths class. He taught complex numbers today, astonishingly, I understood everything, and I did not have to struggle to keep my eyes open, like I had to last class. Then I and my friend Abhishek, had breakfast at the roadside kadai, The food there was awesome and the rates were really cheap. Restaurant chains like Saravana Bhavan loot people these days, I feel the rates there are not reasonable. After having breakfast, we went to PSBB, KK Nagar to attend Ravishankar's Physics class, we were a bit early, and we saw a gang of guys playing football with a tennis ball. They asked me if I would join them, I was bored and it looked fun so i promptly said yes. We played for a while and then It was time for class. Ravishankar taught electrostatics. He has this peculiar habit of doing one problem for an hour, He believes that this makes us think deep and to such levels that we normally don't. Today's class was okayish. It didnt seem too long. My parents had already informed me that I HAD to be there for dad's dining out party at Hotel Green Park, and I had to agree, because this year I don't go out for parties or dinners with them because I don't feel like it, I tell them that I have to study. I reached the hotel early, I parked my scooty and walked inside the hotel. The ambience was great, the hotel looked lavish. I wish I owned it. I want to start my own group of restaurants, hotels and casinos. I think that would be pretty cool. I did not want to waste time, so I sat down at the lobby and started reading Robin Sharma's "MegaLiving". Its a really enlightening book. After a while, my parents, sister and all the other officers with their families arrived. I wished all of them and while going to the dining hall, I saw Mr. A.R Murugadoss, the director of Ghajini and the upcoming 7aam Irivu. I was thrilled, because the humility that this guy possesses, fascinates me. I am really lucky to have met people like him and Dr. Kalam, people who have risen to such great heights in their life, but they are still down to earth, they consider themselves ordinary. The lunch was good, While having a buffet, one should first taste all the dishes and then decide if he wants to have more of that. The dessert was really good. I liked the atmosphere of the hotel too. Then I had to rush home, rest for sometime and go for Chemistry class. I reached class on time, and class was good. My friend Keethan made me laugh as usual. It's fun being with that guy. I have a Computer Science test tomorrow and I have not started studying yet, Computer Science is boring. Shruti gets to study biology, It's so interesting. I wish I had listened to dad and taken biology. I should not have been so adamant. I think this is the longest blog post that I have written. Maybe because, Today I did not get the opportunity to talk to or vent out to anybody. Tomorrow is the investiture ceremony, I have been elected as the Cultural Secretary of my school. Principal maam asked all the council members to be in perfect uniform, but they don't make white canvas shoes of my size, I am 12. Its really tough to get my size. I guess I will wear my sport shoes.

Nocturnal Animal

I have a math test tomorrow on Matrices and determinants. I practiced a little bit. Hope I do well. I have to wake up at 4 o clock and go to Centum's class. He's also doing the same topic there, so I guess It will be kinda a revision for the test. I am reading "MegaLiving" By Robin Sharma. Its a highly inspirational book. I will make it a point to read the book everyday. I have to use all my potential this year. I want to do extremely well and get awesome marks in my 12th boards, marks that I can be proud of, even after decades. Today was a good day, I have been voted to be the Cultural Secretary of my school. Its an exciting post. I hope they let us go to Inter-school culturals this year. I just love going to cultural events! Its so much fun. School is fun these days, being with her also makes me feel really good. I'm going to hit my bed now.
Good Night :)

Boring :(

May of my friends have gone out of station, and There is going to be no tuitions for 2 weeks or so. I don't know what to do. This summer is kind of boring. I have started to do weights though, I am at it daily.

12th

I am finally in my last year of schooling. It feels great to have passes all the annual papers, because the question paper pattern was changed in the last minute. We didn't get great teachers last year, nor did I make a sincere attempt to work hard and get marks, to be honest. Some of my friends had to write a retest for some papers, felt  kinda bad for them. 2010-2011, the academic year was a crazy one. The teachers we had were handling 11th grade for the first time (this year too, we have teachers who are handling 12th for the first time), the so called "friends gangs" in our class broke, some bonded with others who were never close to them, it just happened!
I regret not paying attention to classes in 11th, because annual exams became a nightmare to me. This year, I promised myself that I would be sincere and serious, as this year decides my future, my career. And I wanna make it REALLY big, I am not the kinda person who will be happy being a mediocre. I have a lot of responsibilities on me, and I hope I will fulfill them. I quit IIT coaching for Maths and Chemistry as I found it too tough to follow. I have joined "Centum Srinivasan" for math, CBSE coaching and I'm continuing with Ravishankar for Physics. Its scary to see these guys preparing for IIT like crazy! I feel like I am not doing anything. But, the prime focus now is on getting good grades in the 12th CBSE exam, and I am going to be regular this year, plan to finish the syllabus early. I have centum's class at 6 in the morning, gotta wake up at 5.
Peace.